No makeup on, chillin’ at a Starbucks and watching some vlogs with my Chai Latte.
I’m so drained out. I don’t know if it’s work that’s getting to me or what, but I’m so filled with shitty emotions lately. My annoyance is clearly from work.. Some people just can’t or think that they shouldn’t be doing their own work these days so what’s the consequences? Me. I end up with a crap load of bullshit files and paperwork after paperwork of dumbass shit. I think it’s just stupid to ask for someone’s help on something every. single. day. when it clearly bothers them (i.e. ME). I don’t even represent some of these accounts and I have to work on them? The fuckshitbitch, man. And as usual, my boss doesn’t even know how much I do. sigh anyway..
I’m obviously frustrated.. but that’s another story.
I seriously am worried. Living in Vancouver has been the best thing that’s ever happened to me, but the thing with living in one of the top most expensive places in the world is a little nerve wracking. I love it here, I love how beautiful it is, how adventurous the people are, how great the weather has been to me here.. but sometimes its a little intimidating when you have to be independent about everything. ughhhhh.. Thank God I have a good job and building up my credit line towards a greater future.
sigh.. it’s talk like this that makes me afraid to grow up sometimes. But it’s so kinda funny to think about it too. “Ew, I’m getting older and gross, I have a career now. Yikes! What I grew up. Oh my God, I have money. Oh damn, I’m getting a house in five years.” hahahahaha, this is so scary, but the future is.. exciting? It’s just all that hard work sometimes just feels like hard work and doesn’t seem like it goes anywhere. I guess I need to wait until it pays off in front of my eyes.
Love life? My boyfriend still puts up with me (thank goodness). We had great times during the holidays and I continue to support him with everything that he does. He’s super silly and I’m just so grateful to have someone who puts up with all the shit that I say and do. I love this fool.. and I think it’s forever.